Celebrating and seeking joy rather then grief
Thankfully the book of Psalms continued to comfort me that evening and I did get some sleep. I don't know what it is but the 10 year anniversary really hit me hard.
The quest was still on to find something to celebrate rather then focus on the sadness. Thanks to Mel for giving me the balloon idea. I had done this a few years ago but doing it with my kids and marking 10 years was perfect and really helped me get out of the sad mood.
I loved the balloon colors too... they were bright and polk-a-dot and the one had butterflies which already remind me of my mom. It was a PERFECT balloon bouquet that helped erase sadness because look at the fun colors... who could be sad with such fun balloons!
I also got to talk with my daughter who is old enough to understand. She asks questions all the time about Grandma Bette and it truly brings joy to my heart to tell her stories.