I often talk about physical healing, but lately, I’ve realized that the emotional and spiritual side of healing may be even harder to face. This post feels different to write because it’s deeply personal. It’s about being honest with myself and with God about the parts of healing that no one else can see.
As an educator, I’ve always known that when a student has a big reaction over something small, it’s usually not about the “something small” at all. It’s about everything else beneath the surface—the unspoken pain, the bottled-up frustration, the weight that finally spills over.
And now, I get it in a whole new way.
During this healing journey, I’ve had moments when something seemingly insignificant—like a comment, a small disappointment, or an unmet expectation—has completely undone me. I’ve crumbled into tears, felt anger rise, or just shut down. It’s like my emotions were waiting for one last drop to overflow the cup.
God has been showing me that I’ve developed a habit of stuffing my feelings. I press them down, tell myself I’m fine, keep smiling, and move on. But the truth is, when I do that, I eventually hit a limit. I’m learning that it’s not weakness to feel deeply—it’s an opportunity for God to meet me there.
I’ve also faced emotional hurt from people I never expected it from. That kind of pain can shake you. My instinct has often been to protect my heart, to build walls, to promise myself “never again.” But God has been revealing something powerful: self-protection is not His plan for me. He is my protector.
Psalm 18:2 says, “The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.”
I don’t need to guard myself in fear—I can rest in His covering love.
So when someone I love pulls away or leaves, I won’t take on rejection. I refuse to carry it as my identity. Lord, I give that to You. When others place expectations on me that I can’t meet, and I feel like I’ve let them down, I won’t hold onto offense. Lord, I lay it at Your feet. When the enemy whispers lies about my worth, my progress, or my identity, I won’t let them take root. Lord, remind me of who I am in You.
Ephesians 1:7 reminds me, “In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace.”
That means complete restoration—body, mind, and spirit.
I don’t want to carry pain anymore. I don’t want bitterness, fear, or false protection to shape me. I want to be healed and whole—what Scripture calls sozo, the fullness of salvation and restoration. So today, I choose to let go. I choose to forgive again. I choose to trust that even the emotional pain is part of the healing God is completing in me.
Lord, thank You for seeing the places in my heart that still need healing. Thank You for being my protector, my refuge, and my healer. Help me to release every hurt, every disappointment, and every lie I’ve believed. Fill those empty places with Your truth and peace. Make me whole again—body, soul, and spirit. Amen.
God has been showing me that I’ve developed a habit of stuffing my feelings. I press them down, tell myself I’m fine, keep smiling, and move on. But the truth is, when I do that, I eventually hit a limit. I’m learning that it’s not weakness to feel deeply—it’s an opportunity for God to meet me there.
I’ve also faced emotional hurt from people I never expected it from. That kind of pain can shake you. My instinct has often been to protect my heart, to build walls, to promise myself “never again.” But God has been revealing something powerful: self-protection is not His plan for me. He is my protector.
Psalm 18:2 says, “The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my deliverer; my God is my rock, in whom I take refuge.”
I don’t need to guard myself in fear—I can rest in His covering love.
So when someone I love pulls away or leaves, I won’t take on rejection. I refuse to carry it as my identity. Lord, I give that to You. When others place expectations on me that I can’t meet, and I feel like I’ve let them down, I won’t hold onto offense. Lord, I lay it at Your feet. When the enemy whispers lies about my worth, my progress, or my identity, I won’t let them take root. Lord, remind me of who I am in You.
Ephesians 1:7 reminds me, “In Him we have redemption through His blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace.”
That means complete restoration—body, mind, and spirit.
I don’t want to carry pain anymore. I don’t want bitterness, fear, or false protection to shape me. I want to be healed and whole—what Scripture calls sozo, the fullness of salvation and restoration. So today, I choose to let go. I choose to forgive again. I choose to trust that even the emotional pain is part of the healing God is completing in me.
Lord, thank You for seeing the places in my heart that still need healing. Thank You for being my protector, my refuge, and my healer. Help me to release every hurt, every disappointment, and every lie I’ve believed. Fill those empty places with Your truth and peace. Make me whole again—body, soul, and spirit. Amen.
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